Paula R. Stern – But I Don’t Want to Go to War

The Home Front Command has issued an unusual appeal to Israeli citizens. Prepare for war…now. Every year, the IDF reminds people that they should have basic emergency supplies available – water, first aid, blankets, radios, batteries, some dried food or canned foods, etc.

We are urged to know where we should go – fast – in case of an emergency. If we’ve cluttered up our bomb shelter, we are reminded that we should keep the pathways clear. The only thing unusual this year is the “now” part. No, they aren’t saying we are about to go to war, what they are saying is that we need to be prepared now…always.

The army is directing people to their Home Front site, which details “a full list of emergency equipment”, as follows:

• A means of communication to help you remain informed (computer, television, battery-powered radio).
• Cellular phone including a backup battery / portable charger.
• 3 liters of water in sealed bottles per person per day. We recommended you prepare enough water for three days.
• Food in sealed packages: canned food and snacks.
• Emergency (LED) lighting, a flashlight and batteries.
• First-aid kit, medicines.
• Fire extinguisher.
• Copies of important documents – medical records, prescriptions for regularly taken drugs, identification documents, personal and financial documents.
• A personal equipment bag in case an evacuation becomes necessary – with sufficient supplies to last several days.
• List of phone numbers: emergency services, family and neighbors.
• Other items your family needs, depending on the special needs of each family.

December 29, 2008 (four days later, he would be at war)

What I want…is to go collect my little boy and bring him home. I want to lock him in a room and tell Israel that no, you can’t have him. I’ve changed my mind. No, I’m sorry. He’s not allowed to play with guns and big things that go boom. No, I’m his mother. I gave birth to him and no, you simply can’t take him.

What I want…is to call him and make sure he is where I put him, where he told me he was yesterday. Not in the north, where Hizbollah is promising to burn the ground and open a second front and not in the south, where dozens of rockets and mortars have been fired at Israel, where a man was killed and dozens were wounded.
That’s what I want…

And what I’ll do, is sit here at my desk and keep editing this document for my client. I’ll update the copyright statements and change the installation information to reflect the new platforms the product now supports. I’ll answer the phone and I’ll talk to my accountant.

And what I’ll do, is tell my heart to settle. I’ll tell my eyes to take a moment and look at the next beautiful wave of clouds rolling in over Jerusalem. I’ll sign the papers I need to sign; type the words I need to type. I’ll tell my younger daughter to clean her room and my younger son that he has to study for his test NOW. I’ll tell my middle son he can borrow the car like we agreed, but he has to drive carefully. I won’t talk to my oldest daughter because she’s old enough to see the cracks in my smile and know that outside, it’s all a front.

….I’ll listen if he tells me he’s staying where he is. I’ll listen if he tells me they are moving him up north. I’ll listen if he tells me they are moving him down south near Gaza. I’ll listen, I’ll tell him to be careful, and call me when he can. I won’t for a single moment, tell him that I’m scared, that I have no real experience with this war thing and that I don’t really want him to have any experience with it either.

What I’ll do is continue to listen to the news and pray for our civilians who are under attack, and our soldiers who are risking their lives to defend them.

And most of all, what I will do is dig deep inside where I store my faith in God and in my country and my people. I will do what every Israeli is doing today, hoping this will end soon, but not too soon that we only succeed in putting off to tomorrow what should have been dealt with today. I will do all of this because we are what we have always been, a nation with no choice but to deal with what our enemies choose.

Paula R. Stern – But I Don’t Want to Go to War